Problem with "good".

Well, here we go again... Most likely by the time anyone reads this I would have rewritten it almost a dozen times. Like most (or at least some) people who enjoy writing I struggle with a lot of self-criticism (along with spelling error's and grammar error's). Let me make it clear that I don't purposely self-loathe my writing for attention or sympathy. It just so happens that when I go back and read what I wrote, suddenly I feel like I picked up a book from the library that I don't like (not that I ever visit the library). Well it comes down to this... My name is Andrew Barillas and I love to write. I love it very much. I love it because it is the best way to express myself. To talk about how I feel when spoken words just don't do the trick. But even more then that I love to create. Ever since I was little I wanted to be one of those science kids who took everything apart only to switch the pieces around and create something new. Of course I got in trouble for this so that never turned into anything. I also wanted to draw which never turned out well. But drawing is a good example of what I mean. In a painting you can probably imagine a whole new world or see our world through different views. Often superhero comics take place in some metropolis, a place we see everyday or similar to. But of course we won't see Spider-man slinging his way through New York city (at least I haven't). No, this spider storyline character is just a fantasy. And we don't waste time on fantasy, do we? I'd be lying if I said we didn't. People love to fantasize for different reasons. Maybe they live a boring life or a life where they crave something more. Some of us fantasize about things we want that actually do exist like owning a beach house or becoming the CEO at some major company. Some of us are a little more extreme. When I write, I like to create new worlds. Something beyond the normal. And though not every single thing will ever be 100% original, I'd like to think that I got close at some point to bringing what little readers I have to another place outside of their own life. A place they can escape to.  

So there you have it. I enjoy writing. My problem is... "Good" is never enough. My girlfriend, Alexandra, not only the love of my life but my editor, tells me that beyond some spelling and grammar problems, I have great ideas that I seem to put down well. I just don't see what she's seeing (and by the way this or other blog posts won't be edited by her so God help me...). Well by writing this blog I hope to get rid of some stress I have, you know, talking about how I'm FEELING about something. People say it works! Talk about your FEELINGS! Well lets see how true that is. And who knows. Maybe someone out there might share my problems with writing or want to talk about their feelings and stuff... And stuff.